Although he said he deeply regretted any harm his administrative actions or inactions might have caused, he seemed to view the current pressures he faced as a cross laid upon him by God. "I just want to be able to accept whatever comes and to see it as God's will for me," he said. "If it's the cross, then you know I want to take it. If I bleed, I'm supposed to bleed. If you're a Christian, you've got to be Christ, and if you're Christ you have it in your life to have a cross. He himself said, `If you don't have a cross, you can't follow me.' "He has been reading the writings of Edith Stein, a nun killed at Auschwitz and later canonized, and said he identified with her.
Well, maybe not entirely useless.